So I missed a few days of posting. I didn't miss my focus on life though. I kept that going every day.
It's not always easy to do. I've really gotten into the habit of seeing the immediate moment and not looking forward or appreciating things for what they really are. It's certainly an eye opener!
In the meantime, I've been celebrating and planning. I'm eating my own type of food. I've dropped from a size 16 to a size 12 since the move. I've renewed friendships with two local women and am meeting with a couple I know so I can maybe build more of a friendship there as well.
After confronting Cecil about Nikki abusing him, I was told not to mention it again to him. I was then told that she's not abusive. Then I had to listen to him describe her abuse while explaining how it wasn't abuse. That was one of the hardest moments in my life. I won't mention it again either. I laid it out openly and I think I'm not the first one to have told him.
The short version is, she abuses him, he takes it out on me, and I'm not ok with that. I don't know when, but I'll be walking away before long. It's sad,but, oh well. It beats standing close to a dog that bites me when someone else kicks it.